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Number One

2011-07-12T03:19:00.003+08:00

The other day I was at a flea with Nat & Sien. We saw this shop selling like K-pop posters & other memorabilia from various groups. I remarked (rather loudly actually :/) on how everyone is so into the K-pop scene now & how its kinda annoying. I sound really hipster but too many people knowing about these Korean bands is totally not my issue. My problem with these new generation K-pop celebrity worshippers are blindly listening to crap. There's like a billion new bands popping up on a daily basis, comprising of at least 152 members or so. The girls all look the same, the boys all have the exact same haircuts, and their music is quite frankly horrid. What happened to the good old days when K-pop was all about talent, looks being an added bonus? These days sourcing for good looking kids seems to be the overarching goal of producers in Korea. K-pop is now turning into J-pop - looks > talent.

I watched my first Korean drama when I was 10 (2001), heard my first strains of K-pop in 2002 and became a full blown fangirl with TVXQ's rising popularity in 2005. The music was so much better circa the days of badly bleached locks and outrageously ugly shirts. The artistes back then depended solely on their vocals to push them to the top of the K-pop music charts & occasionally Oricon in Japan. Now tight abs and a perfect smile are all it takes to get a band to the weekly number one spot of Inkigayo.

I miss the old K-pop. I would give anything to go back to 2005 and idolize the then geeky TVXQ. Alas, TVXQ now consists of a mere two members and every K-pop fan is blinded by the dazzling looks of SNSD & 2PM put together. Where's the passion for music gone?

Oh btw my first Korean drama was Autumn In My Heart, first K-pop band was ShinHwa, first solo artiste was BoA, and first music video was Kiss - Because I'm a Girl.

Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home

2011-07-10T00:53:00.004+08:00

Its been ten years since the first movie, and eleven since I started reading Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone. These books became a part of me ever since I turned the cover and saw the Hogwarts crest. The story of Harry Potter is very much a part of childhood and even though the series is now drawing to a close with its final film installment, I will never forget the excitement, happiness and tears the books brought me.

On the year I turned eleven, I did fervently hope and wish that I too would get that owl sent letter from Hogwarts. Alas, such a dream can only exist in J.K. Rowling's perfectly crafted world. That same year, I went to London. The first thing I did upon going to King's Cross Station was to crane my neck left and right (very much like the nosy Mrs. Dursley) in search of Platform 9³/_{4. Obviously, I knew there was no actual Platform}9³/_{4, but I still wanted to believe that there might've been the tiniest spark of magic buried deep within me. It was during that same holiday that I visited Christchurch University in Oxford, where the students of Hogwarts had their meals in the Great Hall. I also had some chocolate frogs (still have the collectible cards), Fizzing Whizbees, Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans and Dumbledore's favorite - Lemon Sherbert.}

All these wonderful memories that the Harry Potter series has given me will remain precious to me forever. And when I watch the final film in about a week from now, I cannot guarantee that I will not tear up when the end credits roll. It is not just a story; it is a part of my life, and I am sure that every person who has read or watched the Harry Potter books or films has had their life touched by J.K. Rowling's brilliance some way or another. She has been the greatest inspiration to me. I am always subconsciously comparing the standard of my shabby writing to the competence that produced Harry Potter. Right from "Mr. and Mrs. Dursley, of number four, Privet Drive, were proud to say that they were perfectly normal, thank you very much." all the way to "The scar had not pained Harry for nineteen years. All was well."; I thank you, J.K. Rowling, from the bottom of my heart, for providing me with the best element of magic a child could only dream of while growing up. You truly are our Queen. Thank you for my childhood.

I think that J.K. Rowling's words at the Deathly Hallows Part 2 premiere basically sums up everything I've been trying to express in this post. "The stories we love best do live in us forever. So whether you come back by page or by the big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home." As such, I plan to get myself a tattoo of the phrase Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home

Born this way

2011-07-08T02:54:00.002+08:00

Feeling strangely motivated now to go back to my artsy roots. Got me some creative juices running through my veins. There's gotta be a pretty muse sitting on my shoulder :)

I want to get started on a tote bag, wallet, DS / PSP pouch, laptop case, oh god there's too many to name! But I honestly am excited to try my hand at creating useful items! :D

Okay I'mma eat my kinder bueno now. Need to get my ass to Spotlight / Artfriend soon to get some materials :D

Fingers Crossed

2011-06-22T08:13:00.002+08:00

One more exam till its over & I'm geting out of here niggas! & since we're on the topic of exams, I think I totally screwed up my Philosophy paper yesterday. Right now I'm just crossing my fingers & desperately hoping for a pass. Good luck & goodbye

Lonely

2011-06-04T06:28:00.002+08:00

I recently made some sugar cookies & damn nigga they were good! :D

Feeling pretty adventurous in the kitchen these days. Gonna try my hand at seafood risotto after having the ridiculously delicious risotto at Ciao Italia. Also I've been craving potato soup, so that's another recipe I'm going to attempt.

I made a smoothie earlier with strawberry yoghurt (I used ski divine, its very thick) and apple juice. Used a hand held mixer to stir it all together. That shit was good :3

Okay this post is really pointless. Think I'll head to bed now. Can't stop thinking about risotto fuck yeah.

Gonna make some baked rice for dinner tonight. Haven't made baked rice in a really long time, I hope its good.

I look like a Japanese chick huh?

2011-05-15T05:24:00.001+08:00

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity

You have an eating disorder - you overeat!

2011-05-11T02:10:00.003+08:00

Right now I'd very much rather be writing an argumentative essay whereby I'd just be presenting cold hard facts - nothing fancy, as opposed to literary fiction which takes up the entirety of my very meagre vocabulary. With an argumentative essay all the facts are line up for me, I just have to argue my case - something I find relatively easy. With prose, I have to imagine the whole thing & be able to describe everything perfectly asdfjkl; I can't think of how to continue this sentence & I should be spending my time on my story, not this blog post. So baby goodnight.

PS yes I realise I've used too many dashes in this entire post.

(")(ㅇㅈㅇ)(") ♥ (")(ㅠㅅ ㅠ)(")

Tell the world that I'm coming home

2011-05-08T05:04:00.003+08:00

Feel so sad that in about 1.5 months time I'll be taking that plane back to Singapore alone. And that for one month I'm gonna be sleeping alone every night. (This also means no sex for a month; boyfriend's hand is gonna be pretty busy) It would be selfish of me to ask him to go back with me when he would rather stay here and earn more money for his bike fund. Might try to ask my mom to give me a job for a month there, earn some cash for my end of year holiday fund :)

I feel so hungry right now, dinner was enough to feed a not so hungry five year old kid. Or maybe my appetite is just too big. This is a sign that winter is near. My hibernation tendencies are showing ugh. Don't want to be going home a chubster this holiday :/ Okay but at least my weight has not fluctuated much so far. When I'm back in Singapore I'm gonna eat like a fat man who's been locked in a cellar for days. Chicken rice, laksa, otah, hokkien mee, Shilin chicken, pai gu mee sua, Pepper Lunch, Ajisen, real sushi, thosai, egg prata, pohpiah, carrot cake, jja jang myun, mcds fries, MOS burger, KFC, fuck I can't think of anything more at the moment. All this food would make me happy, but I'd rather be eating it with Jeremy than to eat alone ):

Wish I could convince him to go back with me. I will be missing him like fuck when I go back alone.

去年の雨

2011-04-20T01:47:00.003+08:00

Looking at my old pictures & i realise now just how much I miss 미키 & 사랑 ): Wish they were still here with me. I hope God is treating them with all the love they deserve in hamster heaven. I miss them so much that I want to just go back to Singapore now so I can spend time with Mr. Mouse & Fluffy, because I don't want to regret not having enough time like I did with 미키 & 사랑.

でも一人じゃない。♥

2011-04-18T03:02:00.003+08:00

I want to go to Japan
I want to eat crepes.
I want to get my own place ASAP.
I want to have a ragdoll kitty.
I want to have a shiba inu.
I want to own a blackberry.
So many fucking wants, but all I need right now is to be able to force myself to sit down and study like a good kid. FML max ):

What you see is what you get

2011-04-02T15:18:00.001+08:00

I think I might be quite superficial.

Mirror mirror

2011-03-29T19:50:00.003+08:00

To all my friends who haven't seen me in awhile:

My (not so) little pony

Meet fluffy, the turtle

I rly like potato chips

K the truth is, I'm very shameless & I want the world to see my webcam pictures cause I think I look nice in them. Kthnxbye

Lemonade

2011-03-29T19:31:00.003+08:00

I want to entice,

To pique your interest in me.

(S0) are you listening?

My itouch is running out of battery & my phone is currently useless fml

2011-03-29T09:11:00.002+08:00

Been feeling really restless lately, like I just wanna get out of this dead end town. A road trip would be nice, but I'm thinking more towards the 'let's go to another country' kind of holiday. Hopefully this wanderlust is quickly quenched or I'll be sitting through midterms with my head in the clouds & my spirit off in Tahiti. To top things off, I've been skipping tonnes of classes, ergo leaving me fucked for the philosophy essay I have due this Thursday. Yikes! Gotta get in the game now.

My nail polish has chipped slightly; my stomach is growling faintly in a fairly quiet library. Story of my life.

And for today's agenda I have to clean up the house, complete the homework for tmr & then start on my essay. Sounds like a plan. Now if only I knew where to start :/

Enough dawdling, time's a wastin' as I type. At this I bid you adieu.

Put on my blue suede shoes & I boarded the plane

2011-02-10T01:49:00.004+08:00

So excited for the fourteenth! Boyfriend booked a two night stay at Hard Rock hotel in Sentosa & we're going to USS for Valentine's :) Cannot wait! Need to ensure that both camera batteries are charged & that I have sufficient films for my instax. Oh yes I have to add that to my list of things to purchase tomorrow.

Making chocolates for Jeremy for Valentine's, & I hope they turn out good, cause I'll be experimenting with Nutella yum yum :3 I'm now wondering how I can bake his birthday cake & get it to him on the sixteenth. My only option would be that we both go home separately after checking out of the hotel & I quickly bake the cake & put it in a nice box for him. Therefore, I also have to buy a nice box tomorrow. Or maybe I'd just buy a cake from Rive Gauche! :D Yum yum I'm a genius :) But right now I'm horribly worried about his present because I think I'll have the scrap the teeshirt plan since there's insufficient time for it. Think I'll sound him out tomorrow. See what he wants. Feeling like such a failure right now because I was unable to carry out the birthday present plans due to severe procrastination & the cramming of too many plans into such a short timeframe.

Going to buy shoes tomorrow. Ciao!

Flavour

2011-01-14T01:40:00.003+08:00

I'm unbelievably bored. Boyfriend has been playing COD for the past 2 hours (without even inviting me to play wtf selfish much) & I've just been sitting on the couch behind him with absolutely nothing to do.

Fuck lah I'm going home

I can bring my guitar when my time is up

2011-01-09T08:20:00.005+08:00

If I could go back in time and undo the changes in my life, would I be the person I am today?. If I could erase the events leading up to the memories I can't forget, would I be happier? I should have paid more attention to you. I should've trusted my instincts. If only I could've just saved your life.

I'm sorry.

Not a day goes by where you are not in my thoughts. I should be happy, that you're in a better place now. But I can't help but feel that if I do that, it would be unfair to your memory. It would not be fair to you if I stopped mourning your loss so quick. Thank you for forgiving me. Thank you for holding my hand with your last breath. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you earlier, but I'm glad that at least, I was there for you at the very end.

I miss you. I wish you could come back.

I'm sorry.

Goodbye.

Twenty Eleven

2011-01-05T04:22:00.002+08:00

1) Lose weight in my face

2) Exercise

3) Grow your fucking hair Schuyler

4) Write

5) Draw

6) Healthy lifestyle

7) Stop being such a lush

8) Make it a point to wear retainers every night (starting right now brb)

9) Pack room

10) Spend more time practicing guitar playing

11) Beat Jeremy at COD & Rock Band

12) Bake

Don't think these are very unrealistic goals I've set for myself in the new year. I just have to learn to stick to them, which requires a lot of self discipline. Its 0430, time to sleep. Lots of plans for tomorrow. G'night sealions.

Empty fucking promises

2011-01-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

I hate it when you do that

Waifs & strays

2010-12-29T04:05:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish I had the ability to just will away the constant motion of the world & just sit still, with nothing to pursue but the desire to write. There are rare occasions whereby the temptation to put pen to paper is too overwhelming that I end up scribbling out seemingly neverending streams of thought (or typing these wisps of imagination my muse feeds me as we now tend to do in a world run by machines). There are also other times where I have to write something, but I just can't seem to find the eloquence within me to accomplish the suddenly tedious task of writing one meagre sentence.

Right now inspirations is flowing in these veins of mine. However, my mind is succumbing to lack of sleep and clarity of thought is beginning to falter me. I woulod like very much to be able to concentrate on filling in the blanks of my fictional drabbles. However, I should be thankful that I am able to even complete this paragraph without my eyes giving in to the allure of sleep.

If I am to write again, I should first begin with little bits. Small paragraphs of detailed description of the world around me, stray thoughts that enter my mind through the course of the day, & conversations & memories that I hold close to me. I need to start bringing a notebook around with me again.

First thing I should do though, is write out a plan for my holiday. I seem to like order much more than the unplanned now, and that scares me a great deal, for it means turning into the one person I would rather not be.

My thoughts are running all over the place now. I should get some sleep.

Goodnight my pups; see you in the afteryears.

They never saw it coming

2010-12-23T04:57:00.002+08:00

Been trying to change my Australian phone plan from a monthly cap to a 6 month expiry date so that it will tide over the holidays. (Both Jeremy & I clean forgot about calling Optus to change our plans, up till we were walking to the airplane) I did procrastinate for ages before I finally got down to doing this shit about 20 minutes ago. Problem is, whenever I try to change my plan, I keep getting redirected to a page where I'm asked to sign in, again. Makes no fucking sense. I will try again tomorrow. Right now all I can do is cross my fingers and hope that my number does not expire on 24th December. Good Luck.

On a brighter note, Christmas is coming. And I have to complete Jeremy's present tomorrow :/ Hopefully I can manage to find everything I need to fill it up. Once again, good Luck.

PS. Maybe I'll add in a pair of Christmas-y boxers to the box :D

All systems go

2010-12-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

Feeling insanely bored now that exams are over & I'm home alone. Feels odd not staying at Jeremy's house cause I've been so used to it already :/ Like when I was typing in the password to my computer I started typing his password instead cause I've been using his mac so often haha fml. But nvrmind they're gonna be done with their last paper tomorrow & I can snuggle with Jeremy tomorrow night after Eric's party :)

Yeah anyway on a side note, I've been playing wayy too much neopets lately. The Petpetpet habitarium has got me checking it constantly like the petpetpets are like my babies or something. But I want a mootix its damn cute.

5 days till Singapore I am happy as fuck right now. Deciding which clothes to bring back & which ones I can chuck here cause I'm not gonna wear them at all anyways. Need to pack the clothes up by tonight and on Thursday I should be done with my packing. I'm taking too long cause I keep getting distracted by the aforementioned neopets :/

Need to pee so badly now I think someone is in the toilet oh fuck.

Dis-fucking-tracted

2010-12-06T05:34:00.005+08:00

Need to concentrate on the task at hand rather than let my mind wander all over the place. Focus on getting the fucking essay done instead of playing neopets goddamnit.

On a side note, 5 more days till singapore. I'm flying back on the 11th fuck yeah!

Okay back to the fucking essay time to concentrateeeeeeeee

School's out, forever

2010-12-06T05:01:00.002+08:00

Last day of the fucking exams fuck yeah!

Did I mention I had an extension on the essay? Its due today & I'm still stuck on the 500 words I wrote last thursday. Yeah I'm a genius for perpetually staying at Jeremy's & not doing any work. I also have not studied for either exam that's slated for today. Gonna get Jeremy to teach me some computing on the way to school later cause he was studying last night while I fell asleep (he woke up two hours later than me & then went on to sleep in the afternoon so it explains why he could stay up to study while I could not). Okay 2 and a half hours to complete this fucking essay & probably read up a bit on viruses for computing before showering & heading for the exam. FML

Good luck or good game?

2010-12-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

Philosophy essay due tomorrow, along with an english exam.

Have not started on the essay, 1500 more words to go. My middle name is now fucked.

Hopefully I can get this shit done by 2am if I choose not to procrastinate ie. spend all my time on the internet doing irrelevant and generally useless things.

Okay lets see how it goes bitches.

PS damn sian now everyone's here at Jeremy's no snuggling time ):

FNJW

2010-11-30T22:11:00.001+08:00

Fuck lah I cannot stop watching Fushigi Yuugi.

Need to get started on essay like right now, srsly.

Jeremy is still sleeping.

Want dinner now ):

Come & play child, come & play

2010-11-30T19:09:00.002+08:00

1500 word philosophy essay due on thursday (incidentally the exams also start on thursday) but I haven't even started. Get to work Sky, stop watching Fushigi Yuugi!

I can start collecting my advent calendar gifts on neopets tomorrow! :) Yeah I play neopets in december is there a problem with that? 25 days till christmas I can't wait to go back to singapore & see the lights in the city sparkle sparkle like edward cullen's faggot bum oh yeah. Speaking of which there's only 11 days left till singapore fuck yeah hometown food here I come!

I'm going to play neopets now, I'll do my work later I swear I will!

So catch me up on getting out of here

2010-11-29T01:41:00.004+08:00

I have a geography report due tmr at 4pm & I haven't started on it (unless having the title page counts as starting). On top of that I'm hungry & feeling pretty damn sleepy. Should not have sex when assignments are due. I feel like just screwing the assignment and going to sleep now fml.

Lonely rivers flow to the sea

2010-11-28T21:26:00.003+08:00

Finally worked up the nerve to ask my mom how my hamster was doing only to find out that he passed away. I kind of expected it cause he was really old when I left, but the news still hit me pretty hard. I cried at the loss of a friend. When I found out that Micky died, the feeling wasn't as bad cause I still had Sarang at least. But now I have no one left, and the feeling of emptiness is so raw and painful it makes me feel like I should never even have had them as pets in the first place. But then I chide myself for even having such thoughts cause they were ~~my friends~~ my family during the two years I spent with them.

May you rest in peace Micky and Sarang. I hope hamster heaven has all the sunflower seeds you can eat. I will miss you dearly and I'm crying even as I'm writing this. Thank you for being a part of my life, even if it was only for a short time i human years. I will never forget the both of you.

I love you.

Why can't I stay?

2010-11-25T21:12:00.003+08:00

Need to fucking concentrate instead of spacing out every five minutes & checking facebook & twitter oh god get a life please. 600 words in my report only 1,400 to go. If only I'd sit still and just do, it'd be complete in a really short time perhaps three hours max? When I'm done I have to do a presentation on the report. Both are due tomorrow oh great.

feeling pretty hungry & slightly sleepy (presumably due to hunger & this bloody Thursday), but boyfriend is sleeping. We were supposed to get pizza but now I shall just have to chew on my finger as my stomach growls in contempt. Maybe if I get hungrier I'll just gnaw on Jeremy's arm until he wakes up & we can get Dominos fucking pizza hello cheese I've missed you terribly so.

Fuck this I should get back to my report.

So long, Astoria

& would you miss me when you get there?

PS I predict the snowager will give me something good at 2215 later.

Angel Ascension

2010-11-24T18:51:00.003+08:00

Need to finish a fucking 2,000 word report by midnight. All I have is a measly introduction of 161 words (my height FYI).

I could probably manage to complete it if only I'd just sit still and do my work instead of spending all my time on neopets (do you have a problem with that?), tumblr & facebook. Ugh need to focus. ADHD pills anyone?

Well at least I've finished my philosophy document study & I'm pretty much done with the english reflective journal. Oh god I feel like eating pasta.

The pussy says meow

2010-11-22T17:39:00.002+08:00

Yeah I'm in a type-y mood today.

One third through the summary & I've still got the reflection to do.

This has to be completed by tonight.

Oh guess what, the fucking library is closing already. Tyvm motherfuckers.

So sing your rhapsody

2010-11-22T16:32:00.004+08:00

Fuck it, can't seem to concentrate on work. Managed to read through bits of the document but my mind ended up taking a walk along the Seine river, fell in & now its drowning in music. Should shut off the sound but the rhythm gives me momentum to continue dum-dum-da-dum.

Anyway, it seems I'm back to blogging. (seems)
Not blogging for anyone out there who bothers to come back here for snippets of information about my relatively mundane life. In fact I could sum up my life in three words: smokes, sex, sleep (alliteration anyone?). So yeah I'd rather not be hounded to update regularly (like I was in the past). If you want to read this, happy birthday blow out the candles, enjoy the icing on the cake; but don't be greedy and ask for two cakes.
Right now I'm at a stage where I tend to forget events right after they transpire. It all boils down to too much intoxicating substances I'm inhaling on a regular basis, & a severe lack of a proper sleeping pattern, thus addling my pea brain. So this is just to chronicle memories & to pen (type???) any thoughts that happen to come to mind. This blog (call it a scrapbook of stray memories if you may) would consist of haphazard writings at irregular intervals - sometimes 10 posts in a day & sometimes none at all for weeks, maybe even months.
Mmm one of my favorite songs just came on. Off to do my work for real now I hope.

We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew

2010-11-22T16:13:00.005+08:00

Just done attending my grad ceremony (from college not uni duh) & everyone's off in a cheery mood while Jeremy & I are stuck at Reid doing our english reports ugh. FYI when I say doing our reports I mean we're playing Warcraft & listening to music & blog hopping respectively. yeah, very productive work being done here bravo brava. Feels so ratty having to sit indoors & attempt to work on the three pieces of assignments I have due for submission on wednesday. But y'all can blame it on my extreme procrastination. Seems we're like the only two who ~~haven't made much progress~~ okay I've made none :/

Here's my work week:

Monday (that's today) - Complete philosophy document study, read the required text for english 5 reflection & actually start on the (2000 word) report.

Tuesday - Complete english 5 reflection & continue working on the motherfucking report.

Wednesday - Submit two above two completed works & attempt to complete & submit the report to turnitin by 11.59pm.

Thursday - Actually submit the report physically then attempt to start on the geography report that's due monday ugh.

Friday - Aha break time :)

Saturday & Sunday - At Jeremy's then do a half fucked last minute report on Sunday night.

Monday - Philosophy essay due on Thursday fml.

Okay, time to start on work.

Bye bitches xoxo

2010-05-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

HIATUS

No motivation for typing long paragraphs of text. Follow me on twitter if you wanna know what's going down in my life (not that there's much)

PS I'm going back to singapore for term break, 26/27 june to 10/11 july meet you all then! :D

2010-04-15T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hello from down under.

Tonnes of things to do, not enough internet capacity for it :S Mom insisted on getting me 1Gb og mobile internet eww. Need to reupload pictures to the OH OH! album on facebook & upload HRC ones. I think I'll have to resize pics first though.

I'm kinda happy with the weather here & the fact that there're angmohs everywhr (those on twitter & facebook will have seen this crap already). I'm not happy tht thr's no instax films here D: They don't even sell instaxes here. Bummerrrr! Its like I have the ace new camera but only 10 films left inside grrr.

Abrupt end of post I don't know what to say & I'm going to read a book now.

Salut!

Say hi to the boiled crustacean.

2010-03-31T16:47:00.002+08:00

Terrible burns thanks to the savage bintan sun.

Jet skiing was motherfucking amazing without a doubt.

Seafood was pretty average.

That about sums up my trip; so adios amigos I'll be back (with tales from down under) before you even realise I'm gone.

♥

OMFG OMFG OMFG

2010-03-11T04:08:00.004+08:00

JungMo from TRAX playing SNSD's Oh! on the guitar.

This is why I love TRAX!

SMent should let TRAX continue doing proper rock instead of just rock ballads. Don't get me wrong I absolutely love rock ballads, but rock is what The TRAX is about & I'd love to see them move back in that direction again.

One day I'll be able to play this well. When that day comes, I'll let you know. For now, just enjoy Jungmo :D

2010-03-09T15:50:00.003+08:00

Haven't blogged in sibei long.

Highlights of March:

120310 Shopping with LLW

210310 Gamehaven & Liverpool VS Manure

270310 BINTAN! ♥♥♥

Like there's something going down every weekend haha :D

110410 LEAVING FOR AUSTRALIA. (Updating the time later)

I've like a month left in Singapore & slightly over a month till school starts omg epic scary. Totally nervous like what if nobody wants to be my friend horror of horrors. I'm so superficial I should worry about like workload & all sorts of other study related crap but here I am thinking about whether I'll have friends in my new school or not hahaha.

Okay I'm gonna go do some fun stuff now like they do in The OC. See you bitches!

2010-02-24T18:05:00.002+08:00

I am soooooo unfit right now.
My sister has abs & I have... blubber (doesn't help that my period is coming soon & I'm bloody bloating; no pun intended). Couple of days back I attempted to do push-ups & found that I could only manage a pathetic total of TWO before I belly flopped in sheer exhaustion.
I need to start exercising soon to tone up flabby arms & tummy before Australia (my legs are fine, still very sexy), cause I can bet I'll eat a whole lot more & doubt I'll get much exercise since I'm gonna be there in the wintery months.
I also need to get leggings & jeans cause I realised I only have 2 wearable pairs of jeans how pathetique. Need to start getting my stuff packed for Perth. Less than 2 months to gooooooo oh no.
Abrupt end of post cause I'm going to go swimming.
PS CALL / TEXT / TWEET / FB / TAG IF YOU WANNA GO SHOPPING @ FAR EAST &/OR BUGIS STREET KTHXBYE!

2010-02-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

Listened to a song that reminded me of you & I was suddenly overwhelmed with emotions. I've never wanted to cry this much over somebody.

You were the first person I had such strong feelings for. Feelings that I daresay might have been love. But you never once looked at me. You only had eyes for him didn't you?

He used to make you cry, I remember that. I remember how I tried to make you happy when he told you that he had a girlfriend. I remember how I always waited for you to leave first so you would never have to see me walk away from you.

No matter what he thought of you, I always saw you as a beautiful goddess. Did I ever tell you how beautiful your existence was? Did I ever let you know how much of an impact you made in my life? I gave you my everything, only for you to break me.

But you know, I can't seem to hate you after all you've done. I know you used me, but I still look back on the days we had together & I still see you as perfection. You could do no wrong.

I just can't seem to understand what I'm thinking anymore. Feelings of yearning & nostalgia have to be erased, I'm moving on. You were never mine, but you will always be my favorite girl.

I need to let go of you now. Its been years since you walked out of my life, silently. I need to let go of the past, in order to make a new start. I need to forget about you.

Girl, you don't know what you've done to me.

2010-02-18T01:06:00.004+08:00

Today KH said that I could probably pull off a pretty boy look if I wore guyliner & made my face less pink.

Kel told me to rub mud on my cheeks. Harrharr.

But yay! I'm a pretty boy teehee :D

PS I had dinner @ 8.30pm but I'm starving insanely now ): Must... curb... hunger...... before going to Australia, cause I ain't gonna be able to grab food from my host family's fridge at like 2 in the morning.

Sneak preview of what's to come on facebook

2010-02-07T19:23:00.006+08:00

I reeaaaally have nothing to say, but umm, I'll probably be posting a whole bunch of overdue pics on facebook soon.

Would you like me to post them here too? (& like give them funny captions or something)

BTW I think Tumblr > Blogger. But if you find me on tumblr please don't tell anyone my link thanks.

Here's some pictures I thought were cute / funny:

I want this boy to be my son!

Reminds me of Vithya.

Me "ARE YOU SERIOUS?"

Vee "No, I'm Harry!"

This made me chuckle to myself for a bit

This next picture is NSFC (Not Safe For Childhood). If you don't want to be scarred for life I advise you to leave. NOW.

If you're weird like me..... HAHAHAHA THIS PICTURE IS EPIC WIN! :D

♥ Pokemon forever :D

If you don't understand this picture, you are probably underaged & shouldn't even be here :S

P.S. I think I fractured my knuckles awesomeeeee

2010-01-25T16:35:00.001+08:00

I'm thinking of deleting this blog.

Give me a reason to stay.

당신 꿈을 뀠어요.

2010-01-19T01:50:00.003+08:00

I want to watch Tekken.
The lead guy is rly cute & the lead chick is like unf hot :D
I have no idea what Tekken is about though ._.
Nahnahnahnahnah nothing else to say I'm motherfucking bored as usual.

2010-01-13T00:35:00.005+08:00

Didn't think I was gonna blog but here I am :) Since I'm totally bored, I'll just fill this up.

Got this off some blog I can't remember what the link is I'm sorry T^T

Where is your cell phone? Sitting between fake 퇘지투끼's thighs

Your hair? In a mess
Your mother? Sleeping
Your father? Let me give him a call first & I'll get back to you
Your favourite food? Horse penis (I'LL LAUGH AT YOU IF YOU THINK I'M SERIOUS)
Your dream last night? About a girl I like :)
Your favourite drink? Horse penis juice (refer two questions up) & I meant pee not semen.
Your dream/goal? To be 준이's 와이프 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
What room are you in? My room
Your hobby? Molesting little boys
Your fear? George Bush
Where do you want to be in six years? Holiday-ing in Europe with my millionare husband
Where were you last night? Dancing to Heartbeat

Something that you aren’t? A boy ):
Muffins? Are just ugly cupcakes
Wish list item? 준이 >ㅅ<

Where did you grow up? Not in your toilet that's for sure
Last thing you did? Your mom
What are you wearing? Tee
Your TV? Is cheap
Your pets? Are licking their balls
Friends? How is this even a question?
Your life? Not nearly perfect but I'll get there
Your mood? 멍~
Missing someone? 박재범 haha cause there's nobody really
Vehicle? Hippo
Something you’re not wearing? A thong
Your favourite store? I like watching animal porno at the zoo!
Your favourite colour? Grey & gold
When was the last time you laughed? Umm a couple of hours back
Last time you cried? When I yawned
Your best friend? VEE!
One place that I go to over and over? Disneyland
One person who emails me regularly? Your mom. I swear she's stalking me.
Favourite place to eat? Anywhere that serves good 짜장면 & 불고기!

I think half the time people have no idea what the fck I'm saying haha.

Anyway, finally gonna post a photo as a preview of what's to come when I'm done editing.

Presenting fake 고미남 from our 미남이신애요 photoshoot ★

I look more like a guy than the real 미남 does :D 아ㅏㅏ~! 난 멋있어! ㅋㅋㅋ

Okay I'm off to molest more little boys now see you all my little geese!

2010-01-07T09:22:00.008+08:00

Sorry no motivation to blog, I'm gonna upload photos on facebook though. & I tweet like all the time so you can go there for updates on my life. OR you can just ring me up & ask me to go out with you.

Uhhh okay I'm out. See you heartbreakers.

황찬성 why are you so unbelievably handsome?

Can you feel my heartbeat?

2009-12-29T03:45:00.004+08:00

In a few days time, I'll be 19.

Its a sobering thought. Like I've literally wasted 18 away. & I'm going to college next year instead of uni so that's another year gone. This is my last shot at school. Try not to screw it up again Sky.

Ugh I hate growing old. I've hated birthdays after I turned 16. Cause once you're past the halfway mark of teenaged years, time just starts to move fucking fast. Before you know it, its the dreaded big 2-0. Horrifying.

Anyways like things to look forward to:

160110 Clubbing with my homiezx

200310 Liverpool vs Manure

Early April Hello Australia, bye Singapore (for now)

Things not to look forward to:

010110 19 ugh

Hmm okay random pictures from Christmas

No idea what movie was on

Trying to play Collide by Howie Day (I cannot play guitar for nuts haha!)

My mother tsk-ed me & called me an alcoholic

Fancy dress party

I miss our midnight rides, on highway 18. 18 is gone.

2009-12-25T06:34:00.003+08:00

Lord Jesus, we remember today that You are King of heaven and earth. We thank You that, after finishing all Your work here, You went back to heaven to the place that was waiting for You there. We are glad that heaven as well as earth is full of the glory of what You have done.

Amen.

Found it in my Primary school Hymn book :)

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Sorry God, I'm not mocking you but I really don't have any more appropriate pictures in my computer T^T

P.S. I'm not christian but I think that Christmas is one holiday that shouldn't be so commercialized. I may believe in Santa, but I think that since 25th December IS the day Christ was born, he should be getting the limelight & not Santa.

P.P.S. Did Santa eat your cookies? He didn't touch mine (maybe cause they're orange flavored)

Merry Christmas everyone!

2009-12-22T15:48:00.004+08:00

Took a tiny handful of photos @ butterfactory (courtesy of Shivani, I was too busy gyrating my hips). I'm contemplating whether to post them on facebook or not, since there's like barely enough to constitute an album haha.

BUT! I'mma give you a look at my short hair now :)

I reallyyyy like this photo (cause I look like 재중) but its like a little risque for facebook haha.

I dunno why my shorts disappeared into my jacket!

Okayy its kinda hard to tell how short my hair is here. Nevermind, more piczos after Saturday :D

Edit: Okay I decided to post the pictoes on facebook cause I have like nothing to do anyways (apart from reading Hunting & Gathering for the millionth time)

2009-12-13T04:33:00.004+08:00

사랑해요 이 한마디 참 좋은 말

우리 식구 자고 나면 주고 받는 말

사랑해요 이 한마디 참 좋은 말

제르미도 그애한태 주고 싶은 말

이 말이 좋아서 온종일 신이 나지요

이 말이 좋아서 온종일 일맛 나지요

이 말이 좋나서 온종일 가슴이

콩닥 콩닥 인대요

사랑해요 이 한마디 참 좋은 말

나는 나는 이 한 마디가 정말 좋아요

사랑 사랑해요

Don't know if its wrong, I'm listening to the song & typing it haha. Jeremy foreverrrrrrr :) I can like just watch his confession scene again & again & again & never get tired of it. No more tsunami of tears when I watch it now though (must have watched it too many times already haha).

Anyways (free) haircut soonz. On one hand excited to become a ~~boy~~ man, but on the other I think I'll miss my luscious long locks (wtf). You can look forward to a real 고(꽂)미남 soon hahaha!

Okay see you hillbillys! Don't rape your sister / brother / uncle / granfather okay??????

P.S. I wanna rape 지용 after watching his Breathe performance. 100% fuckable! :D

P.P.S. Somehow boys in white wifebeaters / singlets just turn me on hahaha. So if you want me to rape you, PLEASE WEAR A WHITE SINGLET / WIFEBEATER, JEANS & WRAP YOURSELF AS MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT THANKS!

2009-12-07T01:07:00.003+08:00

Hiiiii!
I'm like back from Malaysia (truly asia). Bought like a billion things but forgot to go practise my driving :S Driving skillz sibei rusty now, I can't remember like how to move the gear stick thing (I DRIVE A STICK SHIFT NOT AN AUTO OKAY I'M NOT SO STUPID!).
Oh yeah while walking from Times Square to Sungei Wang (I don't know how to spell thisss!) some guy came & talked to me in Chinese & the only words that registered were "Ke yi ma?" Yeah I have tres limited knowledge of chinese okay. Then on the way back to Times Square like a few hours later a guy stopped me to sign a petition(or ??). Naturally I said sorry & tried to evade. Then he was like "I KNOW YOU LOR I SAW YOU FROM THIS MORNING!" I have no idea if its the same guy from the afternoon but haha like fucking hilarious + scary!!
I think Malaysian boys are very horny. Like so many boy shop keepers came to talk to me etc etc. Probably cause I was like wearing shorts (WAS I THE ONLY PERSON WEARING LIKE SLUTTY PANTS IN THE WHOLE OF MALAYSIA??? HAHAHA!)
Anyways took a bazillion photos which will be posted soon... too lazy to transfer them from camelah to computer today.
P.S. Facebook is still not allowing me to post piczos why?????

2009-11-30T01:26:00.002+08:00

I realise my blog is like tres boring (uninteresting life hurrhurr) & that probably no one actually reads it haha.
Anyways, went shopping with Natzo because I wanted to buy a (caramel scented oohlala) body lotion from Sephora. I wasn't too sure I wanted to spend $15 on one tube of lotion so we walked around first. I ended up spending >$40 on nail polish (for fun), magazines & a comic hardyharhar but not buying the Sephora body lotion because I clean forgot about it. Nice.
Wanted to post pictures to entice you people (anybody there?) but blogger's not allowing me. Pity.
Okay I'm going to sleep now, don't know why but I'm fcking tired.
P.S. I just painted my nails glittery purple / pink; very manly :D
P.P.S. Black, yellow or lime, which do you choose? I choose yellow :)

2009-11-23T00:42:00.004+08:00

저녁 무렵 노을이 물결치는 하늘에
문득 울고 있던 그대의 그 모습이 떠올라
잘 있었나요 행복한가요
삼켜왔던 그리움 눈물로 흘러

아직인가요 내게 오는 길
몇 밤을 더 새면 오나요
돌아온다던 그 약속 믿고 있죠
아직인가요 내게 오는 길
이제는 올 때도 됐는데
너무 늦지는 말아요
사랑할 시간이 줄잖아요
-
지나치다 그녀를 봤었다는 사람은
많이 웃고 있던 예뻐진 그녈 기억 한대요
잘 있었네요 행복했네요
걱정보다 잘 지내 다행이에요

아직인가요 내게 오는 길
혹시나 날 잊어가나요
그럴 리 없죠 사랑한 댔잖아요
아직인가요 내게 오는 길
바쁜 일 끝나면 오나요
걱정 마요 좀 늦어도
여기서 내가 기다릴게요
-

떠날 때는 다 미안해서 다
돌아올 듯 한데도 그댄 다르죠
-
아직인가요
내게 오는 길 몇 밤을 더 새면 오나요
돌아온다던 그 약속 믿고 있죠
아직인가요 내게 오는 길
이제는 올 때도 됐는데
너무 늦지는 말아요
사랑할 시간이 줄잖아요

Stuck in my head/ ♥

2009-11-19T19:57:00.003+08:00

OH YEAH YOU KNOW YESTERDAY, I WENT TO SWENSENS TO BUY AN ICECREAM CAKE FOR MY SISTER. & THE GUY WORKING @ THE COUNTER TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE WOOYOUNG! SO CUTE! I MUST GO FIND A JOB THERE HAHAHA! OR MAYBE @ OP SO CAN LOOK @ HIM FROM ACROSS THE SHOP TEEHEE :)

OKAY I'M A PERVERT BYE.

WHY AM I TYPING IN CAPS??

Okay he's not so 싼티

2009-11-19T02:08:00.004+08:00

Dilema dilem dilm dlm.
2 options for furthering my studies:
#1) UWA Bachelor of Arts (double major in Linguistics & Psychology). Not so interested in Psych but UWA's supposedly the best for Linguistics & anyway a degree in Psych can like secure you almost any job. Perth is boring but good for studying & I have like relatives to ~~mooch off~~ visit once in awhile.

#2) Monash Bachelor of Arts (Languages). Tres interested! Double major in English & Linguistics & minor in Korean (how cool is that?). Melb has like wayy more things to do but will probably hinder my study process & no relatives to turn to when I don't feel like cooking (or something).

Pros & Cons. Less workload & more job opps in UWA; higher workload (albeit doing something I lurrveee) & slightly more restricted job opps in Monash.

Hmm choices choices choices. Monash is clearly more tempting but I'm afraid I won't be able to study (hello like shopping in Melb!) while I'm there hurrhurr.

Okay nevermind send emails to both w queries & apps to both. Cross my fingers & hope to get into either.

P.S. UWA's campus is way cooler looking than Monash though. UWA's like colonial(??) style while Monash is like some boring 'ole normal shiny building ugh.

P.P.S. No pictures, wait till I edit the ones taken with Sien :)

P.P.P.S. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO FIND A JOB NOW???

2009-11-12T03:44:00.007+08:00

Totally made my ~~day~~ whole life!

No, thank you for being such a sourch of inspiration. Please stay strong Dustin!

Hi everyone. Dustin is a 17 year old guy with a rare heart condition which has gotten worse recently. He probably doesn't have long to live. To anyone who reads my blog, please spread the word about Dustin & pray for him & his mom. His blog.

Thanks guys x

2009-11-11T03:14:00.003+08:00

Okay I'm sure you all know by now that I totally flaked out on taking my A's, cause I realised on 091109 that I simply wasn't able to cram everything (2 years worth of physical geography) in 4 hours. So basically I fucked up yet again.
I heard from Vee that the paper was like ridiculously tough though. They combined atmo & litho for one question (major wtf) & for another we had to describe shear stress, shear strength & heave for 9 marks (not enough points to write!). She also said that there were people who skipped entire 16 mark essays & I quote "How to pass like that?!" So I'm happy I didn't do it cause I would've probably pissed my pants upon looking @ those questions.
So anyways, my mom wants to send me to Taylors College in Perth (I asked to go to Australia when I was 15, not 19) & I'm also looking @ Shelton (degree within 3 years). So that's the studies bit semi-settled I guess.
Plans for now (half year in advance):
#1) Room revamp please (when its done you can all come for a ~~house~~roomwarming party)
#2) Part time job $$$
#3) Learn Korean & French
#4) Learn how to play the guitar
#5) FINALLY watch the CDs Amelia lent me

Okay like slight headache coming on, I should go sleep.
Goosenight all you little geese!

P.S. OH YES PICTURES! MUST PASTE PICTURES OTHERWISE YOU ALL DON'T WANNA COME READ MY BORING GREY&BLACK BLOG ALREADY!

Sorry, only 1 photo today. I will like take & upload nicer (edited) photos soon okay! :)

2009-11-01T04:36:00.003+08:00

Girls I wanna have sex with:
1. Megan Fox
2. Katy Perry
3. Angelina Jolie
4. Jennifer Aniston
(Lucky you Brad Pitt, you've done both my #3 & #4)
5. Anna Paquin

Yeah okay I can stop dreaming now hurrhurr.
8 days to A Levels. 8 fucking days. I'm fucked. Worst of all is that my mom's going to Malaysia from the 3rd to the 6th. If nobody tells me to study, I'll probably end up spending all my time on the iNtErNeTz. Need to do like a self-imposed internet ban or something.

Its time I learned the meaning of the word discipline.

P.S. I feel a killer headache coming on. Time to sleep then ):

Goosenight y'all

2009-10-28T23:11:00.004+08:00

Hello.

Does my blog bore you sometimes?

Let Shaylen entertain you instead.

CLICK!

Just click okay.

I will hunt you down & make you click it. I swear.

Okay bye guys, have fun :)

2009-10-28T02:09:00.006+08:00

There is a little boy who lives inside my heart & I love him dearly.

Everyday, he'd ask me about the world outside & I'd tell him "Its wonderful, I'll show it to you when you grow older." Whenever I cried, he'd ask me what was wrong & as always I'd tell him "Its a grown-up problem." Some days I told him stories of the things I'd seen; the things I'd done. Some of those deeds were beautiful, some were shameful. Soon the shameful things I'd done overrode the good. Yet I still told him about them, for he was the only one who asked.

One day I woke up & the little boy was gone. In his place was a handsome young man. He told me "누나 I've become an adult now, will you take me with you to see the world now?" I was happy for now I had a real playmate. We went places together & did many things together. You could say I corrupted him. He broke all the rules & did everything that he wasn't supposed to do, & I encouraged him, because it made him happy.

Soon he grew tired of seeing the same things & left me to explore the world further. This time, it was my turn to patiently wait for him to return with stories. I waited for years & he never returned. But still I stayed, hoping to catch a glimpse of him coming in the distance. & he did. One night he staggered back into my arms, a dying man. He had no stories to tell me except one:

"I hate you. You brought this upon me. You should have warned me that doing everyting I did would kill me one day. I will never forgive you."

Tears fell from my face as I held him close to me. He was slipping away from me, but I knew there was still a trace of that little boy inside of him, the little boy whom I loved. I whispered as he drew his last breaths, "But I will always love you."

My name is Temptation. His name is Curiosity. We were never meant to be.

There is a little boy who lives inside my heart & I love him dearly.

Does this make sense to any of you? I actually managed to confuse myself.

P.S. Quite philosophical right? I can totally be the Aesop of the 21st century, sans the beard :)

2009-10-10T02:58:00.006+08:00

Less than 1month to A-fucking-levels. Sucks balls.

Want to play > Need to study. Not good. Should be focusing all energy on the latter.

3 subjects I have absolute zero knowledge on & completely rusty for the other 2 subjects. Fucked or not? Amelia's quite determined to study now & I'm just drifting further away from the world of 8)s. Anw no choice, just wing it & then SAT it.

So this means I have to stop using the computer until 301109. HAHA fat hope. You'd have better chances getting an elephant to jump than to get me to stay away from the computer for more than a day.

One thing's for sure though, I probably won't be blogging for a very long time unless something tres interesting transpires in my insipid world. Like there's nothing going down right now anyways so you can all just suck my dick & make it exciting for me thanks.

No pictures as usual & too lazy to upload the wedding ones from almost a month ago. Like >100 pictures I think? Not so free.

Fun Fact: Did you know that its physically / biologically / somethingcally impossible for elephants to jump?

Fun Fact 2: A male wild boar's orgasm lasts for 9hours. What a stud!

Bye fuckfaces, until something epic takes place...

2009-09-30T01:38:00.002+08:00

Our time is up; the ship has sunk.

I never expected that I'd be this sad

But its time to move on with our lives now.

Thank you for letting me keep my promise,

Thank you for letting me go.

At this, I bid you adieu.

Farewell my sweetest sorrow.

2009-09-23T17:49:00.002+08:00

Taken from Vee's blog.
If you don't cry, you're heartless!

Click & drag

2009-09-23T17:21:00.006+08:00

If you can get 250 points (all balls fall into the 50points slot), take a screenshot & show me. I will buy you a mars/snickers bar :)
NO PHOTOSHOPPING OKAY! MUST BE HONEST BITCHES! :D

Okay lah, if you can beat 200 (my highscore), I buy you a kitkat :)

FUCKING CUTE!

2009-09-23T16:50:00.002+08:00

Click the hamster to feed him :)

2009-09-22T04:14:00.003+08:00

Oh yeah during the wedding, the pastor guy was like doing the solemnization ceremony thing when Nat suddenly turned to me & said "Waffley". I almost burst out laughing right in the middle of them exchanging their vows! LOLOLOL

Anw Heartbreaker is totally stuck in my head & I'm still hungry ugh.

Heartbreaker

2009-09-22T02:42:00.006+08:00

I'm starving.

& there's nothing to eat at home. What's the point of having a hugeass bottle of Nutella when there's no bread to eat it with? & what's the point of having a 24hour foodcourt downstairs when I'm scared to go down alone? I is scared of ghosties. I know 7month is over already... but peepearl die everyday ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Anw I'm very angry with myself. I'm supposed to study. GC & dicktionary are supposed to be my best friends but I'm just sitting in front of the computer everyday. & when there's nothing to do online, I take out my old comics to read (have to go buy new ones but there's no more cOmIcS CoNnEcTiOn near me). Must.... study..... soon....

Important dates to take note of:

251009: Liverpool vs Manure

091109: The day I sign my death warrant ㅠ

Must make a deal with the devil to postpone my death date cause I've not finished Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge & Ouran High & haven't met 정윤호 & 박재범 & 권지용 &&& I haven't turned into a vampire yet (I'm not referring to the sparkly Twilight kind). Sorry Mr Devil, I think you just have to move my death date to when I'm 101 years old cause I have too many requests -ㅅ-

2PM 영원히 ♥

P.S. I'm too lazy to upload wedding pictures.

P.P.S. My 14 year old cousin (use your style haha) is taller than me... my life.... suckssss

2009-09-12T01:07:00.005+08:00

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste

Give me a sign & I'll take that plunge, honey

Je ne sais pas, pourquoi je t'aime
Mais je suis prête à t'aimer quand même

2009-09-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

Woah, just re-read my post. I'm damn passionate. I should totally be the leader of Hottest already. Either that or a lawyer / politition.

2PM forever! Come back leadja!

2009-09-09T00:52:00.006+08:00

Just ignore, just ignore. Its all about 2PM.

I'm like seriously pissed at the netizens for the whole 'Jaebum hates Korea' fiasco. Normally I'd adopt a nonchalant attitude when it comes to things concerning celebs. When Jaejoong got into his DUI accident & Heechul was in the car crash, I was like thinking 'Oh, get well soon', 'I hope it doesn't affect their dancing' & that was it.

This time the netizens / antis have gone too far. I mean I'm the kind of fan who only finds out basic information about celebs ie. birthday & height (along with stealing a whole bunch of pictures from various sources), but I actually joined a forgive Jaebum fangroup on facebook & even signed a petition for Jay to come back.

Honestly, these netizens are too much. Its a comment he wrote four years ago. Its long over. Move on.

He was a teenager when he wrote it. He was all alone in a foreign land. It was a complete culture shock for him. & that's how kids articulate themselves: dumb, gay, shit, fuck = our favorite words. Yes yes, he is an idol & hence is a role model for the young impressionable minds out there. But guess what? Nobody would have even known he made such snide remarks about your motherland if you had not dug such obscure information out. Besides, he's matured now & even issued a formal apology (it takes a real man to own up to his mistakes, I can't even do that sometimes). What more do you want you freaking antis? What sort of perverse self-satisfaction do you gleam from watching a human being fall apart completely due to your malicious words?

Hello netizens / antis, let's take this scenario. You're a teenager & you've quarelled with your parents. Later that night you write down in your diary 'My umma / appa is gay. I hate umma / appa.' Four years later, you're living happily with your parents & haven't had a quarrel in ages. Your parents find said diary, will they tell you 'Oh you said I'm gay & you hate me. Get out of my house now.' Will they tell you that you should be ashamed of yourself? Will they say that 'you should just commit suicide!'? No, I highly doubt so. Cause they know you are only human, & that as a teenager, you're prone to saying & doing tonnes of things you regret later in life. They will accept your mistakes, just as you should accept Jaebum's (HELLO HE GAVE A FORMAL APOLOGY).

Who are you to judge him anyways? Remember, let he who is without sin cast the first stone (or w/e the bible says, you get the point)

Oh fuck you netizens for giving me frown lines just from thinking about this. Mind you, I am not judging the netizens, I'm merely grousing against their actions. But I also believe that what you do unto others wil be repaid threefold. So netizens, you should commit suicide in shame for completely decimating the dreams of a bright young man. Rinse, lather, repeat.

P.S. I used accept in place of forgive cause I don't believe that we humans have the right to forgive anyone; & that only god has such a right.

P.P.S. I am not Christian.

P.P.P.S. Jaebum if you are reading this, please return to 2PM!

2009-08-26T09:12:00.000+08:00

See not working again. I told you it works on alternate days.
Anyway, today I told my mudder, 'I'm thinking of getting a tattoo in a couple of years' time. A small one though.' Her reply, 'Oh okay lor.' I don't think she was fully awake when I was talking to her hahahaha.

My band, your band

2009-08-26T00:29:00.004+08:00

Here are the rules:
1: Go to Wikipedia. Hit “random”
or click
http://www.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first random Wikipedia article you get is the name of your band.
2: Go to Quotations Page and select "random quotations"
or click

http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four or five words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.
3: Go to Flickr and click on “explore the last seven days”
or click

http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days
Third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.
4: Use Photoshop or similar to put it all together.
5: Post it on your blog, facebook, myspace, wherever.

Here's my album art, click to enlarge :)

P.S. I edited the picture as well, but its up to you if you want to do that haha

2009-08-26T00:04:00.003+08:00

I didn't know Traveler was being shown on Ch5!

Incredibly boring show, but its fucking Aaron Stanford :)

Blogger is working again, so I'm off to edit the previous posts. The huge font size kinda irks me.

P.S. If you're wondering why I didn't coment about the swimsuit section for Miss Universe, its because I wasn't paying attention. All bikinis look the same to me & if I really wanted to see a girl in a bikini, I can just wear mine & stand in front of a mirror.

2009-08-24T10:56:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA WTF VENEZUELA WINS AGAIN

2009-08-24T10:37:00.004+08:00

Not bad, Puerto Rico's answer's quite smart, & I cannot stop staring at Venezuela's earrings.
Kosovo has an easy question but she interpreted it wrongly I think. Superman asked her what is it that makes her want to be famous (or something like that, my memory isn't that good). If I were her I would've answered, "I want to be famous so I can influence everyone into having...... WORLD PEACE!" then flash my megawatt smile all around the room.
Okay, now I'm just waiting for the winner, but I'm still depressed that its not South Africa D:

2009-08-24T10:32:00.001+08:00

I am fucking devastated! Why is South Africa not in the top 5??? T^T

I am depressed. I'm going to slit my wrists now ):
By the way, Venezuela looks like Natalie Portman.
I know, should be using twitter instead, but that lanjiao son of a bitch is not working for me so there's just gonna be a bunch of ridicuously short posts here

2009-08-24T10:10:00.002+08:00

OMG South Africa looks absolutely ravishing in the evening gown! Now I also want to marry her! Oops too many potential wives already.
Kosovo has a ridiculously small waist, Dominican Republic looks like Willy Slater, France looks like she stole Lady Gaga's bling & Puerto Rico's boobs are bouncing all over the place.
Hope South Africa wins cause she's truly beautiful (don't care about whether she can answer the question or not) :D
P.S. Kelly Rowland sounds incredibly weird O_O
P.P.S. I cannot spell country names for nuts so...

2009-08-24T09:28:00.004+08:00

Why did they get Heidi Montag, of all people, to sing at Miss Universe? & what in the world is she wearing? It looks like glittery gym clothes =/
Bad choice of singer aside, South Africa, Puerto Rico & Switzerland are absolutely gorgeous :) But none of them are prettier than last year's winner. Dayana's smile is just too beautiful & dazzling! Whenever she smiles, I just feel like marrying her! Okay I also feel like marrying Megan Fox & CL but shh Miss Universe 2008 does not need to know that.
As usual blogger's not working again & I can't be bothered to play with the html.

2009-08-23T17:21:00.001+08:00

Went to Game Haven, land of the geeks, for wii yesterday. My arms are damn sore from wanking, but Zulhornz takes the prize for being master masturbater & YLQ's the best singer of the day.

No pictures cause Marc didn't bring his camelah & mine wouldn't turn on ):

Okay no more playing from now on; must make GC & dictionary my best friends for these (less than) 3 months. Fuckkkkkkk.

P.S. Why is www.twitter.com being such a lanjiao?

2009-08-15T05:38:00.002+08:00

Reading fml & this seriously made me laugh
"Today, I finally had sex with this great guy I've been seeing. I thought I'd found a catch. We get into his room, start kissing, and things heat up. Everything is perfect until he reaches under his bed, pulls out a doughnut and shoves it into my mouth, snarling, "eat it, eat it!" FML"
HAHAHAHAHA! WTF is wrong with that guy???

P.S. Blogger is being retarded again & I'm using HTML again

2009-08-12T02:25:00.005+08:00

Okay blogger's working again.
Anyway I was reading a copy of Her World magazine which my mom brought back from the office & there's an article about guy talk. Or manguage as they call it.
I realised I ~~have mastered the art of~~ was fucking born speaking manguage.
Here are some examples that really made me wtf

#1
He says: "I think the other one you tried on was more flattering."
What he means: "Would you just buy something for @#$% sake!! ~~I've spent so much time loitering near the women's fitting rooms, the staff are about to call the police.~~ (omitted due to irrelevance)"
I say that alot just to get the person to stop trying on more outfits.

#2
He says: "If you want."
What he means: "I don't want to, in fact I'd probably rather pull my head off than go to that boring work event/awful social activity/family occasion/Kate Hudson movie/classes to learn to make ancient Aztec socks (I wouldn't mind making Aztec socks though, its kind of a dying art isn't it?)."
Used very often when reluctant to go to place xxx, eat xxx, watch xxx, etc. Also used when I think you should not be buying a certain shirt/pants/pick up a whore with herpes, but if you want....

#3
He says: "Its not here."
What he means: "I've been staring at the open refrigerator/pantry/wardrobe/supermarket shelf/box of stuff for 1.2 seconds and whatever microscopic, atom-sized thing you asked me to find hasn't jumped out into my pathetically outstretched hand without me having to make the slightest attempt to find it."
Often use when looking for ham in the fridge. Mudder is a victim of this phrase.

#4
He says: "No, you choose..."
What he means: "I'm okay with whatever restaurant/bar/movie/club/proctologist (WTF IS THISSS????) you want to go to. I have my own choice and it's obviously not yours, but I couldn't be bothered to argue."
I say this very often when I'm just too lazy/don't want to sound like some spoiled bitch.

Shit, I am well versed in manspeech. In fact, I'm also terribly guilty of searching everywhere for the remote in order to switch channels rather than walk up to the TV. I also leave the dishes in the sink (when I'm alone) till I run out of cutlery/utensils before I wash them & at times I drink straight out of a carton of milk/eat right out of a tub of icecream before sticking it back into the fridge. Okay, maybe this is more like a case of a serious lack of personal hygiene.
Anyway, there you go! I'm a 30 year old male bachelor stuck in the body of an 18 year old chick. FML.
P.S. #1,2,3&4 are copied from the article verbatim. The words in parentheses are my own.
P.P.S. I do not abhor Kate Hudson films. My best friend's girl was fucking hilarious, do watch it.

MEGAN FOX IN YSL @ TCA!

Wish I could be Rob Patz just for that moment...

2009-08-11T04:53:00.005+08:00

Does anyone want to buy anything from Forever21.com? Cause I see some stuff I'm interested in & obviously I'd rather split the shipping cost keke.
Btw I saw a panther ring earlier @ Chameleon but it fucking costs $15.90 Isn't Chameleon supposed to be some cheapass shop???
P.S. Using html to edit my posts & I'm lazy to use photobucket so no pictures for awhile
P.P.S. I'm going to watch G.I. Joe! Lee Byunghun! Sienna Miller! Ohmygod!

2009-08-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

OMFG WTF IS WRONG WITH BLOGGER AGAIN???
KNNCCBshutupdickface!
penispenispenis

2009-08-03T02:31:00.002+08:00

& omg Takuya Kimura & I can totally be sibs already!
We look creepily alike! (& to think we thought I looked a lot like Yamapi. This certainly trumps haha)

MyHeritage: Celebrity Morph - Family photo sharing - Old pictures

2009-08-03T02:16:00.002+08:00

Seriously WTF.
Why is it all men???

& the biggest wtf is that I look like Vin Diesel???

He is damn fucking manly lah! Omg seriously fml.

Btw I've got an 80% for Takuya Kimura & only 73% for the lone chick ):

2009-07-31T00:32:00.003+08:00

Saw a cute chihuahua today (don't normally like small dogs, but...). Wanted to get him but mom said no ):

"the two monkeys are already making lots of noise. with this it will be like a circus" was her reply haha. Monkeys are referring to my hamsters by the way, who can't seem to make up their minds on whether they want to be monkeys (climbing up the bars on their cage), pigs/vacuum cleaners (eating nonstop) or hamsters (angry squeaks when they get into their lovers' spats).

Trying to convince my mom to go down to the pet shop with me tomorrow to look at the cutie. I'm hoping that she falls in love with him too :)

Anyways, Liverpool pictures are up in facebook. I'm a tad lazy to post them here, but I'll think about it.

Alright I'm off to reread Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fireeeeee (for the 29126th time)!

Okay, just one then :)

2009-07-29T02:31:00.004+08:00

Seriously, how is it that all these celebs seem to know each other??

Still having wistful thoughts of being a celeb so I can have celeb friends. Hurrhurr total looooser.

Honestly though, my mom asked earlier why I didn't just go sign up for Sinapore Idol if I really want to sing. Its a no-brainer really. I just don't like 'talent' competitions cause they all have little to do with talent at the end & fall almost entirely into the category of high school prom queen & king selections ie. popularity votes. Ergo if you're pretty/handsome & you're really 'cool' you win.

Anw based on the adverts where the supposedly 'okay-ed' contestants sing some national day songs, only one girl amongst say 30 of them has actual talent. Not surprising considering the utter lack of power in the voices of our previous 'idols' Taufik & Hady. Mind you I'm not trying to imply that I'm bursting at the seams with talent or anything. Its just that I wouldn't want to associate myself with a pitiful bunch of worthless (insert your favorite singer's name here; Miley Cyrus perhaps?) wannabes. Wait, Miley Cyrus wouldn't count cause she has no talent either. My bad then.

Okay I'll probably be flamed* for this if it goes public. Thank god my blog currently has next to negative readers :)

* by Miley Cyrus fans, Miley Cyrus, Hady fans, Hady, Taufik fans, Taufik, Singaporeans who can sing, Dick Lee/Ken Lim & Saddam Hussein's ghost

P.S. Wow I'm very mean & I'm totally bashing on people who can't sing. Simon Cowell would be proud :)

P.P.S. Riera is like sooo in love with me

P.P.P.S. I sooo want to go to Anfield now

P.P.P.P.S. Seriously.

preview preview; stolen from Marcus Quek

2009-07-28T01:07:00.005+08:00

YES YES I CAN EDIT MY POSTS NOW!

I'll edit the previous post tomorrow with pictures from the match :)

Anyways, I was watching the preview for Vampire Diaries & I realised the guy playing Stefan's not bad looking actually (as opposed to the picture I saw of him in IMDB). I don't quite fancy the actress playing Elena though. Dunno, I think she's kinda plain? Not what I expected for Elena for sure. (& isn't Elena supposed to be blonde? Or did I remember wrongly?)

I'll probably have to reread the books since Amelia & Arsilia got me the last book in the series (5 books in total) & the last time I read them (1,2 & 3 i think) was like when I was 12 & that was fucking ages ago.

Hope the show's not a disaster though, but seeing as its produced by CW, it'll probably be pretty good. I hope.

Oh hell, I'll just watch the damn show for Ian Somerholder :)

icon made centuries ago

2009-07-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

Wtf is wrong with blogger?
What happened to my post options???

2009-07-21T01:50:00.001+08:00

Oooops :)

2009-07-17T17:47:00.002+08:00

Malaysia is fucking hot. Its like being in Sang Nila Utama's armpit, swinging from follicle to follicle. I don't make sense.

Anw, I have gone from wearing a size L to an XL & I weigh 44kg. FML, seriously.

Btw I forgot to bring my fbts cause I left them to dry (just washed) & now I have to walk around in denim FML

2009-07-16T08:49:00.003+08:00

I FUCKING WANT TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!!
But I can't, cause I'll be busy the whole day & I'm heading to Malaysia tomorrow & won't be back till Monday.
Going to Cafe del Mar later with Amelia & Arsilia. To tan or not to tan? I prefer fair skin (waiting for my previous tan to fade completely), but at the same time I tend to wear shorts ~~very often~~ all the time & white legs don't look very flattering unless you're angmoh (which I obviously am not).

Anyways don't call me while I'm crawling through the dense jungles of Malaya & sipping tea with the Datuk cause I won't pick up the phone. & if you need me to help you get anything, tell me ASAP bitches!

Oh shit I need to go to the library to renew/return my books!

Btw, Laughing as they Chased Us by Sarah Jackman is an awesome read, check it out sometime :)

facebook display picture, can't believe I haven't edited the rest!

2009-07-14T04:33:00.006+08:00

I'm really hoping that Harry Potter will be good (can't remember the storyline already). I'm totally giddy with anticipation just from viewing the trailers over & over (I like to perv at Malfoy, cannot ah). I don't normally like platinum blondes & Tom Felton is like incredibly scrawny, but somehow his sex appeal as Draco Malfoy just grows with each movie. & Daniel Radcliffe seems to be shrinking as the years pass. I've seen tonnes of comments on photos that go along the lines of "is Daniel a midget or is Emma just really tall?"

World Premier @ London

Proof that Harry's a midget

Happy midget

Emma Watson!

Bonnie Wright, who is surprisingly quite pretty

Can you recognize Hagrid without the beard?

Severus Snape AKA Low Liu Wah

Freddie Stroma, the new it boy?

This is Neville Longbottom & he's actually pretty cute now haha

Scandalous! McGonagall & Ron getting it on!

Draco&Hermione foreverrr

but what the hell is that chick on the right wearing?

Our favorite Gryffindor princess accidentally flashing her knickers

Bonus: Blondes have more fun, especially if you're humsome :)

2009-07-14T03:59:00.001+08:00

I'm damn tired but I just can't get to sleep at night, fuck insomnia.

& I should seriously start studying, there's less than 4 months left till A's. The cycle seems to be perpetually repeating ):

2009-07-13T13:55:00.008+08:00

KOREAN JOKES KOREAN JOKESSS
Too bad if you're not Korean or don't understand Korean ㅋㅋㅋ

Okay I'm not so mean, I'll help out where I can :)

Four rats died and they were given a chance of being born again. The first rat requested to be a cow (소). The second rat asked to be a bird (새). The third rat said he wanted to be a rat (쥐) again. When it was the fourth rat's turn, he didn't know what to say, so he just said, "I want to be all three of them"

He was turned into a sausage (소새쥐).

Three women were having an English test. They each had to make a sentence using the word "hostess"
The Hispanic women said, "A hostess seated me to my table"
The Russian woman said, "I work as a hostess at a restaurant"
Then the Korean woman said, "When my mom picks up the phone, she says,'hostess?'"
(IF YOU DON'T GET IT, TRY SAYING IT OUT LOUD WITH A FOB ACCENT >:D)

There was an old lady with a Satoori accent waiting for the bus in America.
When the bus arrived, she said "Wat dae wat dae (it came it came)"
The American man next to her thought she said 'what day?' so he responded "Monday monday"
But she heard it as "mon dae mon dae (what what?)"
So she said "bus dae bus dae (bus came bus came)"
Then the man goes "ohh HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!"

Asian names that you dont want to have:

Bob Oh (Babo)
Eric Shen (Erection)
Park Yoo (Fuck You)

On an english test paper, there's a picture of a monkey and there's "M______" next to it & students are supposed to fill in the english word for it.

The Korean boy writes "MC 몽"

(MC Mong is a singer, just google him)

How old is an onion?
5년 (five years, read as oh-nyeon & sounds like onion)

What did Justin Timberlake say when he dropped his rice?
Dirty BAP! (Bap is the korean word for rice & this is obviously a pun on Dirty Pop)

What did the fish say when it lost it's bones?
Oh my ggashi! (ggashi is the korean word for bones & it sounds like oh my gosh)

So there was this really really cute Korean girl. Tragically, one day, she lost one of her ears in an accident. As she was looking out at the ocean on a bright morning along the beach, a man caught sight of her and was awed by her stunning beauty. He could not see that she had only one ear, as her long hair ran luxuriously down the sides of her head. Boldly, he approached the young woman wanting to start some kind of conversation, anything, just to talk to her, so he said, "아 귀업다!

(he says ah you're cute, but it also sounds like ah no ears)

김치만두 (kimchi dumpling) met 김치 (kimchi) on the road. What did he say to the kimchi?
이안에 너있다 (you're in here)

what kind of noise does bread make when it hits a wall?
BBANG! (bbang is the korean word for bread)

Where do cabbages pray?
쌍추애리 (sanctuary)

HAHAHAHAHA! If you know more, please tell meeeeeee! :D

2009-07-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

Yes yes Henry is the killer.

But I almost cried when I found out Henry's reason for killing. Poor Henry ):

I'm glad Jimmy's not the killer cause I ♥ Jimmy! & I ♥♥♥ Sully too, even more so since he died such an honorable death!

Anyways I remember Ying Quan saying that what if Danny is the killer & for awhile earlier I thought it just might be him. Then I suddenly remembered, Wakefield is white, Abby's mom is white, how the hell did they have a black kid? HAHA

Oh god now I have nothing to look forward to on TV every week except for snippets of Soeulmate moments on BOF ):

Okay off to watch Bladeeee

2009-07-08T13:23:00.002+08:00

You can't have me

I knew Cal & Chloe were going to die together, they just had to. But I would have done what Chloe did; wouldn't you?
I'm anticipating Sunday.
Please don't let Sully die, please don't let Jimmy be the second killer, please let it be Henry, pleasepleaseplease.

2009-07-08T12:59:00.002+08:00

OMG there's a TV series for The Vampire Diaries!

HAHA goodbye Edward Cullen, hello Damon Salvatore >:3 I preferred Damon to Stefan when I read the books (like in sec1 or something) & Ian Somerhalder is playing Damon ♥♥♥. Stefan is ugly though LOL

& OMG Matt Barr is slated to play Keith van der Woodsen in Valley Girls? Must watch even though he's like the adolescent 'Serena's dad'.

2009-07-08T04:21:00.002+08:00

To make up for the lack of photos:

adopt your own virtual pet!

That's all for now, enjoy :D